The Wrinkled Blown Blue

The wrinkled blown blue skin
Grasped at by ever thinned
Dark could be finger or limb
Push out to islands on the rim.

Dark and choppy Manvers Lake

Beautiful Detritus

Goldsplash lamplight

Goldsplash lamplight under vivid latex sky pushed into shapes by body above it: memory foam

The insignificant, often stepped on and through, cursed at.

The Need to Remember

The need to remember.
The never to forget.
This list of essential tasks
on mobile, in my head.

Milk, bread, light bulbs, to live,
To bury my Nanna
beside my mum, sister.
Lay her casket to rest.

The need to remember
why this delay
to fulfill my Nannas
wish to be buried here,

join daughter, granddaughter.
I have kept her ashes
stored in my room at home.
Close to their photographs.

I have told myself ‘Do
It!’ and nothing is done.
I cannot, will not let
go of her. I am done.

Let her and myself down.
Must get hold of myself.
Must call the vicarage.
Must say a last goodbye.

The never to forget
as I shop these shelves
everything on my list
that needs to be done.

My Nanna, Sister, Mum
Were my bread, milk, light.
My wife, daughter, grand
kids are essentials now.

The need to remember,
the never to forget.
one list to another
an urgent task undone.

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Cold December Morning with and without colour

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The inside of my bones

The inside of my bones
Know this December light
Know this December cold
And Angus pulls on his lead.

A white Highland terrier.
Your bedside companion
Until that December
I took him for a walk.

The inside of my bones
Know this December gust
The surface of my eyes
Gathers so much gritstone.

My December vigil
Your bedside, Mum. Your breath
Irregular like gust.
Went to Dad about it.

I told Dad about it.
“Take Angus for a walk”
And the gust blew the grit.
And Angus pulled his lead.

Home half hour later asked
Where you were. Ambulance
Had taken you away.
I’ve never seen you since.

Gust is ghost breath and still
Brings water to these eyes.
The inside of my bones
Know this December cold.

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After Arrival By Heritage Diesel One December Day At Howarth

One December Afternoon at Manvers Lake